8 More Days
August 2, 2010
In the not so distant future, I’m going to be heading out to Army boot camp in the process of becoming a soldier for the United States of America. I’m not sure what I feel so far, I kinda don’t feel anything at the moment, but I guess I never really got nervous about anything until it was right in front of me. So probably my anxiety about leaving what I’ve been very comfortable with for all of my life will surface soon. I’m mostly thinking of how I’ve sorted wasted my time this summer, and a lot of the time honestly. I haven’t seen a ton of my friends and although I haven’t made myself seem unavailable, I haven’t actually been forthcoming about wanting to spend time with them. So I suppose that’s my fault, but I guess it’ll be easier if I just go without having to say goodbye or anything. Some of them I haven’t spoken to or seen in a year it seems and maybe it’ll be best for everyone to not have to reunite only to say goodbye. It’s not like I’ll be gone forever, but it definitely is one of those occasions where some loss might be felt among the people in my life.
I have actually less than 8 days to spend time with everyone if I choose to. I don’t leave for boot camp until next Tuesday, but I have to be away from my home on the Monday prior mostly so the recruiter doesn’t have to drive me to the facilities where they check through everything early in the morning. So do I wanna see them again, or just pretend it’s like any other year and have them go about their business not reminding them that I enlisted in the Army. Sensibly it would be good to spend some time together, but part of me doesn’t want to deal with it.
